remembering: october.

During the month of October aka the Prelims months, i was actually stuck in this vortex of perplexity.

Yet due to it, i gained a realization of myself in a queer manner. While i was seeking God's comfort; while i felt it evading me once more, His grace touched me when i least expected it to.

It was as if a veil was being slowly from my sight. Also due to it, i finally came to acknowledge the fact that i lack the courage and faith needed to start things anew.

I still lack it, thus i'm trying. Still trying. One day maybe. I'll see you eye to eye and finally find the guts to ask you to be back with me.

this.
is my dream.

Looking pass dreams, another major confession was made in October. Where i talk of the crazy front i put on ever-so-often. Well, at least one of them. Haha. Typing this was not easy. It was so personal. So honest and buried. Something that i never expect anyone to say to me. In fact, when i saw his message, i started crying. Little sobs actually. Oh the irony. Hahaha. =)

Oh course some fun and great things happened then too. It was also during this month, that i met up with someone i have not met for a very very long time. 10 years in fact. Jung Pu ! Yup. I met up with her at mjc's open house as we went around. Speaking of which, i have yet to get our photo from that guy yet. Hmm..

Oh oh. I also did a stupid quiz/questionaire thing which i took from zuohan's page. Thus the title. Haha.

Kkkz. Thus i round up October. Next month on will be November. Ah the much dreaded O levels. =))